Daily Mama Drama

I believe it was Paul that said I am thankful for this trial I am going through for it is through this and because of this that now I feel closer to the Lord than I ever have. For the first time in a long time I really get that. I think of the things that my husband and I are facing today and in all honesty it can be incredibly overwhelming.  But I also sit here and think I have not felt His presence as strongly as through this trail we are now going through.  I feel my marriage is such a blessing and the day I think everyone thinks, ” How could I love you more than I love you now,…?” And the answer to that is through the trails and blessings of life, marriage, kids, and spiritual growth we can say,” I love you so deeply and with such a refiner’s fired love that I love you so much more than the day we said,”forever.”  But back to Paul as we fight through this horrible time, and ask the Lord why, or how, when, how long, and most importantly Father will I be happy and be ok,…. and His answer is I am here.   I think it’s like a parent when in the situation as a parent those big brown eyes look up at you and it seems as if they are saying it feels impossible.  I think it’s like that for the Father. He can fix this but more importantly He is here for us.  I think that is such a fine line.  Last night my husband was walking in the snow and he said even though it seems dark and bleek out the snow still shown like a million crystals letting us know there will be a beautiful future for us ahead.  The man I married and the man I am married to today is someone I am so proud of.  He is smart, sweet, quiet, understand and has taught me more about the love of God than I could have ever imagined. Love is not proud, Love does not boast, Love is not unkind, Love is and will always be the words I think of that represent my husband. Randy is not proud, Randy does not boast, Randy is not unkind, Randy bears all things,…. Each day he teaches me so much.  And through this trail as I grow in marriage and as I grow in the Father I am so thankful that the Lord has blessed me with such a wonderful partner to grow with.  And we will get through this trail together.  And for right now I will draw close to the LordI will lean on Him and His words ”I will never leave nor forsake you ” and I thank Him for this because He is here now.